Thank God that’s over… March 31, 2008

I don’t know what came over me… I kept thinking, “sugar”… hmmm… what is that? It’s just at the tip of my tongue… Eureka!!! I’ve got it!!! Sweetah than suga!!! hahaha!!! — confused?? — well, it’s the nickname used on the net. I used it for a couple of years til I realized that that nickname had a huge appeal on pervs… Anyway, I had a previous weblog named after that, but I kinda stopped coz I guess I ran out of things to blog about… So i tried to search for it again, and boy did I find it!!!! (I can smell the stench of embarassment seeping through my pores! hahaha!)

Let me just say that I wasn’t very mature when I wrote what I wrote. It was just so funny reading some of the stuff I put there. I was a “Smiley-face” type of blogger every line had a face on it. (Actually make that 4 or 5)  I didn’t use big words or anything like that… (wait, do I KNOW any?) It’s kind of silly when I was reading it but it brought back fun memories. It’s always nice to look back on the past, it makes you really appreciate what you have now and make you realize the “end-result” of some of the challenges you’ve overcome.

I used to write some article-ish stuff on the net, just me, trying if I’ve got a knack for writing them and actually writing something with SENSE. Something that would let people know that I ain’t just anotha pretty face, I’ve got the brains to boot! bwahahaha!!!!

So, to kind of exonerate myself from my previous blogs… Here’s one of my article-ish blogs… Just me talking.. Thinking aloud when I was still single and searching, and searching, and searching… =)

Life w/the Single Girl

May 28, ‘07 2:16 AM for everyone

(I’ve finally gotten enough rest from writing; here I am at it again…)

Current Mood: hmmm… Torn between being happy & sad. =PCurrent Music: “When will it be me?” – Yasmeen I’m going to muse on a topic that has been the dilemma for most people. For men, it is one heck of a joyride (if you’ve got a worthy face), for women it’s an obstacle – especially when you’re about to cross the finish line. And who better to discuss it than the single girl herself – ME. =) Single hood has its own share of ups and downs. If you’re an optimist, then you’ll say that being single is synonymous to being FREE. Freedom to do whatever you wish, go wherever you want, wear whatever you want, flirt with whomever you want. But how about when the party’s over? When the lights are switched off? When the laughter is altered with stillness? When you’re friends say their goodbyes and all you’re left with is room filled with echoing silence. What happens at the end of the day? Being single should not mean being alone, after all, when you’re single you have all the time in the world to spend with your friends and families. But you’ll find that there’s always something missing in your life, a hole that only a “special someone” can fill. And this is what makes the single life not so perfect.  Say you’re at a party with friends; you’re having a great time. Then as you pause to look around, you’ll notice your friends’ phones’ constantly ring… Yours just lay there. No matter how hard you try to dismiss the fact that no one’s checking up on you, you’re secretly wishing for just one message… but this I have found is true – A watched phone never beeps.  Being single can be a drag, especially when you have those moments when you want to go out and have fun, but your friends are busy. You don’t have a choice but to sink into a moment of slight depression, and no one’s gonna come to your rescue. You will then come to an instance of realization that everyone needs someone to call their own; everyone wants to fall in love… Like they said, “no man is an island” and therefore, in times of loneliness and isolation, you just need someone to be there for you. And what’s even more painful is when you’re searching for comfort you find that – YOU’RE HOLDING YOUR OWN HAND. That’s why it’s so tough being single these days, not mentioning the pressure that comes with it as one grows older. The taunting of friends and families can be annoying. But what they don’t realize is that not all single men and women are single by choice, some just don’t have that much of luck when it comes to love, and some are just born to be that way. It’s like it’s written in the book of their lives. And they’re known to be quite grumpy, right? Those people should be understood rather than mocked; they have all the love in their hearts with no one to give it to. And they turn to their families so they can share what they feel, or to take care of other families just as how they would’ve taken care of their own.  As for me, God knows until when I’ll be single. Right now, I’m just living life one day at a time, if love comes my way then good. If not, I’d still be hopeful that love is gonna find its way back to me somehow. After all, hope is the most exciting thing in life and if one honestly believes that love is out there, it will come. And even if it doesn’t come straight away, there is still that chance that it will. And when it does and it lasts and exceeds all that you’ve expected in love, only then you’ll know that love is and always will be worth every single second that you’ve waited.  Bottom line is: There’s nothing wrong with being single, I have the freedom to do what I want, when I want, no petty arguments, no hang ups. The whole world can see that I am tough enough to stand on my own and take care of myself. But truth is I wouldn’t mind having someone to laugh with, cry with and argue with. I wouldn’t mind trying to be better for someone, letting someone give me a hug when I’m just too weak to go on. It’s great to be free, but then again, I wouldn’t mind being bound to someone who loves me. =)  In this life where you should always expect the worse and hope for the best and I know that God is just too busy trying to write the love story that will sweep me off my feet. =) In all the paths that we have to cross in this life, they say that love is just around the corner, question is which one?! ^_^

I am but an amateur March 19, 2008

I’ve always been fascinated with photography… I used to be a camwhore and taking pictures of myself (no pun intended.. ^_^) so I can translate my emotions through them. Happiness, monotony, sadness and all my other feelings I thought could only be reflected on my face…  But as time went on, I realized that what I would really want is to reflect what I feel through the pictures I take..

I haven’t had formal training on photography, that’s why I would love to have lessons someday… Maybe next year, but I can’t be sure… I guess the first step into getting serious with this is to buy a really nice SLR camera. I just own a digital camera to get me started but it barely has the features of what I think I need. Right now, I just have to settle with my camera and hopefully get my SLR camera by the year’s end and the photography classes by next year. I’d like to post some of my “amateur” images… The introduction above is intended so that the people who’ll see this will go easy on me.. har har har.. @_@. So, here’s some of the pictures I’ve taken…

“umbrellamp”

“Sipa”

 

“T-Ouch!”

Well, that’s it for now.. told ‘ya i’m an amateur.. hahaha!!! i really need those lessons huh???! i’ve got some more pictures but i guess I’ll save them for later..

How far can beauty take you???!!! March 17, 2008

I was having a convesation with a friend before, we were talking about how women can actually get away with a lot of things when they’re pretty… This seems to have been proven in a lot of instances, for example, an interviewer probably would have a better conversation when they have someone really pretty to look at…. At that time my friend told me.. “beauty is everything”… Is this really true??? Can people really become that shallow????!!!! Although I have always believed that there are some people who know better than this, a bunch of judges in a Beauty Pageant held a few weeks ago seem to have proven me wrong.

I don’t mean to hate on anyone, but if and when a person decides to join a beauty pageant, preparation is key, having a bikini wax in preparation for the swimsuit competition (ouch!), having her hair and make-up done, trying to walk with a book on top of her head, the list goes on… But the most crucial part of the competition should unquestionably be prepared for - the Q & A portion, because this definitely destroys the notion that beauty pageants are a joke, it’s a way to prove that one contestant can handle grace under pressure and to show the world that there’s more to her than just a pretty face. A lot of other beauty pageant winners were able to do this… They have proven their worth for Filipinos to put their faith in these beautiful and SMART women to try and show what they’ve got in international competitions…

Much to my dismay and absolute disappointment, one contestant who made it to the Top 10 Finalists in Binibining Pilipinas 2008, had a horrific case of verbal diarrhea on the Q & A portion… And crazy thing is… She won the damn Binibining Pilipinas WORLD crown!!!

 I just had to put this here…

Paolo Bediones: So you won two of the major awards, Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit. Do you feel any pressure right now?

Contestant: No, I do not feel any pressure right now.
Paolo Bediones: All right, confident! Please choose a name of a judge. We have Miss Vivian Tan.

Vivian Tan: What role did your family play with you as a candidate to Binibining Pilipinas?

Contestant: Well, my family’s role for me is so important. Because der was d… deyr… dey was the one… who’s very… haha… Oh, I’m so sorry. Uhm My pamily… my family, oh my god.

Paolo Bediones (off-mike): Pwede mag-Tagalog. Sige lang, sige lang.

Contestant: Ok. I’m so sorry.

Paolo Bediones (off-mike): Okay lang yan.

Contestant: I’m so sorry…I… I told you that I’m so confident. Eto, uhm, wait. Hahahaha. Uhm… Sorry guys… because this was really my first pageant ever. Because I’m only 17-years old! And ahahaa… I.. I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of TAF Ten… Mhmm… Sooo…. But I said DUT my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.

I know it must’ve been hard for her, but owwww the horror of it all… She should’ve just spoken in Filipino, we’re in the Philippines for crying out loud! I even heard Paolo Bediones telling her to answer in Filipino, that it’s alright… but NOOOOOO, she HAD TO answer in english and continue the humiliation.. Those few minutes seemed like years to the audience… Yes they laughed, some were disgusted, some were sympathetic and some were feeling all of that all at the same time… Like me. Oh, she still has time to grow and to learn in the next few months and she should definitely get ON WITH IT…

For the judges, y’all know how a lot of our Kababayans think… She did not do well on that at all y’all know that… Giving her that crown is a big risk. Yes she’s just seventeen but that’s no excuse… Alright, she is very pretty, charming and has strong charisma, but what’s BEAUTY WHEN YOU’VE GOT NO WITS TO BACK IT UP????  Everyone was in the same position as she was, and she should’ve scored BAAAADLY.. That’s just wrong.

 Anyway, let’s just keep our fingers crossed that she’ll get an interpreter when she joins the Miss World Pageant.. By golly, I’m gonna watch that… If she makes it to the finals, I mean.

My walk to remember March 17, 2008

As little girls believed in fairytales and happy endings, I’ve always had my kind of wedding in mind… Just like the time I planned and fantasized about my 18th birthday party - sadly, that didn’t happen… not because we couldn’t but because I didn’t want to have one.. And that was kind of a hard time for my family so I didn’t want to burden them. Anyway, back to my wedding dreams… I’ve always wanted to be married in the oldest church in the country. As I got older (when I was still in school and didn’t earn any money on my own), I wanted to wear an expensive white wedding gown with a beatufilly made train and veil, clutching a gorgeous bouquet of white tulips, chauffeured in a white vintage car to the Manila Cathedral, walk down it’s aisle, get married to the man of my dreams and a garden reception with white silk tents that open up to see the stars and fireworks display while me and my husband kiss… well, that’s all.. IN MY DREAMS.. D’you know how expensive it is to get married these days????!!!! geessshhh!!! 

So, now that I have completely realized what it takes to get married that LAVISH… I am planning my wedding (which is a few years away) the most prudent way I can, for me and my husband to be. =)  These are all just plans.. We haven’t talked anything solid about the wedding but the BUDGET which is where the primary concern should be at. ^_^ So, this is just me talking, aight?

I still want to get married in an old church somewhere not too far from where we live. This church seems promising…

Photography on the wedding day and some wedding preps (like enggagement pictures) are very crucial, I realized this when my mom and dad lost their pictures to a series of calamities like fire and flood… There are still some pictures of their wedding that was saved but I would like my wedding pictures to be beautiful and could stand the test of time.. With modern technology, this doesn’t seem impossible and expensive.  

I told my boyfriend (he said he’s still going to propose so I can’t call him my fiance just yet), that I would pay for my wedding dress and even the entourage coz I wanted everyone to look their best and not be uncomfortable with what I made them wear. I want my entourage to look perfect, my friends and relatives are all beautiful and I want them to wear short bridesmaid dresses. The colors should be the same but not matching dresses, I want the dress to fit them and not the other way around. I want to have it for different body types and for them to look pretty and comfortable. =)

 Of course for women, getting married is their day. Not so much the groom’s, but the bride’s. It’s how the bride looks that presents the drama of it all…. har har har. @_@ I just want to look… hmmm.. serene… Just have a quiet confidence (thanks Paula) about myself… Simple strapless gown with a train (not too long though), white veil and white roses (if casablanca lilies are not available or too expensive)… hair up in a bun with white pearls or crystals.. =) that’s all. =)

 For the reception… well, I haven’t really seen a place for that… A place spacious enough for our probable 300+ guests. If I want to have the reception fit our budget, we would still need to find caterers who would be willing to work within the budget we’ve set on catering. I know it’s going to be a stretch but I think we’ll do fine… (fingers crossed).. For the souvenirs, I guess this is one thing that a lot of people take little notice of.. We have to make the souvenirs as US as possible, that when they see it, they’re gonna remember US and our wedding. And seeing as how we both love a lot of things Japanese or presents Asian traditions.. I thought a cute pair of chopsticks would be the best souvenir for us…

And seeing as how my image uploader seems to have a glitch coz it won’t work… I guess our party favors wouldn’t be included here.. anyway, we still have a long way to go… and now our main concern is just saving up for the big day and our life together. That’s it for this veeeeery long post.