“Nakita ko sa drawer ko ung old diary ko back in College.. I started reading yung 1st quarter ng 4th year ko, I read about how I met my ex and how we became “US”. Sobrang nostalgic kse I used to write in detail lahat ng nangyayari sa day ko.. And I read sobrang daming signs that should’ve made me realize na niloloko nya lang ako, So may decisions I should’ve made that could’ve saved me from so much heartache… Pero I was blinded by my love and I completely disregarded all the signs… I feel sorry for my old self, there i was loving him, but he was loving someone else… I cried tonight not because I still feel the pain of it all, but because I see how different you are from him and that I never have to write anything that painful again, ever. Thank you for loving me the way you do…”
That was a text I wrote this morning, around 2am I think, when I couldn’t put myself to sleep… I was loooking at a montage of our pictures on my wall and I just came to realize how lucky I am now for having him in my life… I used to tell myself my ex was the first love I’ve ever had, sadly that’s not the love I was wishing for, the one I’ve been waiting for. True, I loved him with every bit of my being, but something kept me from acting like myself when I was with him… Now I know why, I still did not trust him enough, part of me avoided being attached to him like girlfriends do… Yeah I thought about him a lot and I did a lot of stupid things for him but now that I’m with someone worthy of all my trust and my love I’ve totally surrendered to the feeling of being in love… I tell him that I love him every chance I get, I kiss him and hug him and hold him in my arms sometimes teary-eyed… I’ve never done anything like that before, and I know that may seem corny but that’s all true and it’s going to happen when you find that one person that can make you fall in love that way… *sigh* I don’t know, this feeling is something new, something GREAT. Hope it’ll last forever. 
